Bass, rims, and acceleration.

I have a boyfriend named Julian and I like him a lot. He's pretty cool. He likes cars, I like cars.. it's a win-win situation. Hopefully I'll learn a lot.

Hope got a cell phone, finally. I worked at a smoothie bar, hopefully I'll work more often. I applied at Party City.

Etc etc.

Welcome, Ghosts.

I got in trouble for trying to stay home today, which sucks. My mom was mad, but I don't regret asking. I really felt sick. I actually had a great day at school, though.

My dad got a ford escape.It's green. I like it. His engine in the chevy blazer blew up on Friday.
Georgia is flooded. No school tomorrow. Looks like I got my 4 day week anyway.
Markus blew me off again yesterday. I haven't been this angry in a long time. I should have expected it, though. But he's been so perfect lately.. I guess there will always be something more interesting to do other than hang out with me in his eyes. I'm sorry I'm never going to be good enough, but I'm starting to realize how happy I truly was that month without you. The only drama in my life now.. is you. I need someone who does NOT treat me like a last resort. I need someone that can communicate with me. Someone who would rather be with me than anywhere else. Someone who won't even WANT to hang out with other girls (not saying that it really bothers me at all).

I think I like someone else, which is cool, yet horrible. But it's probably nothing serious. "Why do I always fall in love with anyone who shows me the least bit of attention?"



Hopefully going out to breakfast tomorrow morning with him, actually.

I can try to fix anything if you'll let me near

I've been falling behind.


It happened again. Again. Two or three weeks ago. Markus has been trying to get me together. He wants me to report it, but I'm too afraid to do so. We went to a counselors house and I talked to her for about two hours. I got papers for a group at the YWCA and it's on Monday's. I'm too afraid to go, but I know I need to. I might try it once.

I can't wait for fall. I miss wearing sweaters and jeans, jackets and scarves. I'm sitting here drinking a cappuccino and wishing it was November. Please hurry?

I need a job. I need a car. I want money. I want a blanket. I want Markus to hurry up and get here. I've been waiting all day and I'm getting impatient.

I finally found someone willing to be a model for me: Leah Gia. I took a bunch of photos, they're being edited and hopefully I can post them at some point tonight. -crosses fingers-

Homecoming week is this week. I haven't decided if I'm going to go to school Friday. If I do, I'll leave before the pep rally. We'll see.

my heart is in the right place. you have saved me once again. you have given me the safety and security that i have needed. i now have the wings to fly. not yet on my own, but we're getting there.


"you need to stop hiding."

Between the Sheets

I feel like I'm never going to be good enough for him. Or anyone, for that matter. Karma is a bitch, though. I think it's all biting you right in the ass. I feel bad, but I'm laughing hysterically at the same time.
This is all for you. Everything.

"I want to be good for you." "I know."

Disappear

I'm going to disappear for a while. I need to. I hate myself and what I've become. Completely and utterly.



I'm getting therapy so hopefully when I return I'll be a little better. I'll probably still write here, though. If not then I have a livejournal. ANNAchronimuss is the name. Yeah I left out an S on accident/purpose.

I don't think I could possibly hate myself more than I do right now.